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Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Negative Three...

...days from my due date, that is.

(It still feels like Monday to me cause I woke up at 10:30 and couldn't sleep so I decided to stay up till Jesse gets home from class...which should be any time now. But technically, it's now Tuesday! ;o) And I'm still not having a baby...)

Oh I'm definitely having contractions. But they're just the kind that you only notice every twenty minutes or so...where you put your hand on your belly and say "hmm". But you don't really notice them unless you're sitting down being bored. Or trying to sleep.

They're not the kind of contractions you want to be having at this point in your pregnancy...the kind where you have to stop what you're doing and take a deep breath and you put your hands on your tummy and say "ow" to yourself as you check your watch and happily realize they're getting closer together and you can go to the hospital soon. (Well, Marie Mongan would say you aren't supposed to be saying "ow"...you should be "deep breathing" and visualizing how great your peaceful, natural labor and delivery is going to be...but I do what I can!)

Nope, none of those contractions, yet!

I'm alternating between super excited (YAY she'll be here soooon!) and super bored (GAH when is she going to get here?).

The only anxiety I'm feeling is fear that she won't come before "they" (them dang doctor folk) want to start talking about an induction. I don't know exactly when "the talk" about inductions happens in big old military hospitals, but I'm sure they won't let me go too long without giving me the stink-eye about waiting it out. I'm scheduled for an appointment on Friday morning.

Hoping and praying I go before then to avoid the headache of nonstress tests (which, ironically, stress ME out!) and arguing about what demands a truly medically necessary induction.

Now is the time I'm really missing Deb, my NY midwife, who never even brought up an induction with my nine-day-late first girl. (Though she did do a routine nonstress test at 41 weeks.)

And now is the time I'm depending on the Lord for the strength to be patient and at peace with his perfect timing. Psalm 46 is where I ended up in my devos tonight. Perfect timing, God...just perfect! In all things!

Psalm 46
God Is Our Fortress
To the choirmaster. Of the Sons of Korah. According to Alamoth. [1] A Song.

46:1 God is our refuge and strength,
a very present [2] help in trouble.

2 Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way,
though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam,
though the mountains tremble at its swelling. Selah

4 There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,
the holy habitation of the Most High.
5 God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved;
God will help her when morning dawns.

6 The nations rage, the kingdoms totter;
he utters his voice, the earth melts.
7 The Lord of hosts is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress.

8 Come, behold the works of the Lord,
how he has brought desolations on the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear;
he burns the chariots with fire.
10 “Be still, and know that I am God.
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth!”
11 The Lord of hosts is with us;
the God of Jacob is our fortress
. Selah


  1. amen and amen-

    Jessica, you can do it, you are doing it,...because God is faithful and you are His.

    Sam is so much closer to being here than she was yesterday and today will bring her even closer and - your whole world will be changed before you know it. Don't want to sound trite or clichey, just want to encourage you that you are right -
    God is with you and God is helping you...
    and, well, I'm just shaking my pompoms -"you can do it, Jessica!!!"
    love you much----

  2. Thanks for the pompom shakes and the encouragement! :o)

  3. Remember that all you need to say is "no thank you" when induction comes up.

    Doctor/midwife: "Jess let's talk about induction".

    Jess: "No thank you. I'd like to wait until closer to 42 weeks since I tend to carry long. I might just not have an average 28-day cycle. A lot females have much longer. Thank you for offering though."

    The end.

    Love you and miss you!!!

  4. Aw Hil I miss you! Thanks for weighing in...I was thinking of you the other day. Hope your semester ends well for ya!

    And you're totally right. No thank you...simple, easy, to the point.